I’ve felt pain, and fear, and sadness,

Moved forward with fast paced regression,

All of these things has made me who I am,

But til now, waiting for your undivided attention…

We wait, and pray for love to find its way,

We move, and try to get through each day,

We cry, for having too much pain to keep within,

We hope, and show fake smiles for the sadness unseen…

I sent a message and tried to call,

Letting you know without you I’d fall,

But neglect was all you had to offer,

And good times we had you won’t remember

Escape these eyes of those who seek,

For those who look of what you reek,

Words you throw will always fail,

Actions shown with darkened trail,

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No matter how you prove your point,

Though pure of thoughts, with a broken joint,

No matter how kind a heart speaks loud,

Will never be heard of ears so proud,

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And all you show will always be wrong,

All your smile is their sad song,

When what you seek are walls to cling,

But all you’ll find are shits they bring,

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Will this ever end, their observing eyes,

When all is true and no more lies,

Will they ever get so satisfied,

With what I did and what I tried…..

Saturday nights doesn’t feel like the way it does,

When we’d laugh on the lawn and roll on the grass,

When we used to hate hard drinks and used to love beers,

And used to smoke stuffs and hear whispers clear,

Friends, alibis, kin, or whatever I’ve called you,

I wish we could do those things when problems were few,

Missing the life of a teenage boy, we had most fun,

Now just a memory, and most of us, gone…

I’m in tears, sadness fills your dark embrace,

I cry, with problems which we could not trace,

I fail, in telling you how much you had changed me,

I fall, deeply in love but had cowardly flee

I miss Pam, where could she be,

That strong blissful eyes of a tough cookie,

I wish I’d see her name on my dash soon,

I’ll be forever reaching, like the sun to the moon

This goes out to you Mr. Anon,

Look at what you did, a friend is gone,

May you burn in hell and suffer,

Go burn, go die, you fucker…

Something’s wrong, something’s amiss,

Where are the cue? the smile? the bliss?

Seemed to her, forgotten I was,

Lurking, hiding, behind these tall grass

And so the tall tale ended,

Of quatrains where two hearts mended

They now walk separate ways,

Giving one last turn, one last gaze

I write these things of what I feel,

In doubt with pain of what is real,

Read these lines and feel me cry,

How love had left my soul to die

A gesture to end a friendship forlorn,

Gloomy mornings awakened with mourn,

Faulted, then shattered with a broken piece,

Of what we had, of something I’d miss

I stood beside the rainbow’s end,

Hoped to find a loving friend,

But all I found was a glowing tomb,

Of a child that died inside the womb